Reality. it can be quite hard to accept at times.i shouldnt be affected.i know i shouldnt be, but why am i feeling so? it wasnt mine to begin with, so it was just lucky that i had a chance. so i should be thankful(: yes i should. things just keep crumbling down these few days and i dont really know how to react to it. i cant breakdown, i cant.i need to have some resillience in me i guess. if i keep breaking down at every obstacle in my life, then that's really stupid. yups, but i guess things can be quite hard at times. i feel relatively lost today, and quite disappointed, quite thankful. it's like a mix of all kinds of emotions. i cant really describe it well:/ anyhows, school's been reallyreallyreally busy and work has been mounting up. i feel like i have this endless pile of work to complete and there isnt enough time at all! it SUCKS. and i should stop bugging myself with these unimportant stuff and get my act together and start studying.SERIOUSLY. on the other hand,im just feeling so pumped up for season i cant study): and after season, i dont know what im going to do. i'll probably have another wave of emotions- this time probably helplessness. yeapps.and i keep believing that im gonna screw up everything, and the lack of motivation to do stuff does scare me a little now.i just want to sleep, and relax, in a land far far away(haha sounds like shrek), and never wake up for a really really really long time(sounds like sleeping beauty heh) i guess im just leaving in my own fantasy again, as usual. back to reality. time check: 2 days to season, next week GP cts, RPROJ, ccal camp.3 weeks of HORRID CATCHING UP OF SCH WORK/REVISION, and then i have more CTs. MEANWHILE, there's PW to conquer, workshops to attend for rproj, and LOTS of chem makeup classes to do since ive missed countless lectures and tutorials. dear God, am i even going to survive this. okayyy that's about it.on a side note,i do owe alot of ppl presents. from Lex, to mel to tongz.... a never ending list.so much to do, so little time.in fact, no time. i should really get out of here, plug in my ear pieces and get cracking:/ | 